to the person i consider as my air, my light, my life
i know its been a long time since we knew each other its just a friendship, brotherhood and nothing else more we share a common bond that only the two of us can understand it, a bond that no one knows, no one understand and no one can accept it. its like a life full of happiness inside a prison. its almost three years since we been in prison to each other a prison that we choice between heaven. its a prison we can share our true self.
i thought its just a friendship but i guess its not until the day you admit that your falling for me i was so happy because i feel the same way as you. the moment stop for a while with a smile on my face and i know you smile the same as mine. its just like heaven, feeling your floating in the sky birds fly with you, fish swim with you the feeling cannot be compare to anything else.
but suddenly i fall from the air drown with my tears when you tell me this is the end, we cannot be together this is the last part of our journey we cannot proceed. moment suddenly stop and tears run down my face its like a big stone drop into my heart. i cant stop the emotion running trough my veins. hands are shaking knees are weak i feels like Im going to faint i wish this is just a dream but i just this is already a nightmare.
i know we both being hurt but you manage to stay the same as before like nothing happen. days past and i manage to come back also.
but this time i need to say goodbye. i cant keep on like this its slowly killing me inside and i don't like to hurt anyone i know where wrong from the start but i been weak with my feelings sorry for disturbing you our path should never met.
from now on im going to my own journey without you in my life i know its hard but i will do this for the sake of everyone i love you but theres nothing left for me to do. this is the only way for us to make everything right
if time comes and our roads meet again i hope you will notice me and i can look into your eyes without the pain in my heart. i know time will tell when were going to met again but for now take care and don't forget everything i told you..
you might not beside me but your always inside my heart..
i love you...
my♥is.Bleeding
